Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Thoughts of You

Been thinking about you a lot lately. I have been needing someone to talk to and you were always the best listener. You were also the one that could tell me things straight--even when I wanted the sugar coating (although you also knew when I just needed comfort). I miss that the most. I need that the most. Someone to confide in; to talk to. You were the best at that.

I miss you every day, but lately, I have missed you even more keenly. Funny how years can pass with you gone, but it seems like it was just a few days ago since I got your last letter.

I so looked forward to your letters. You were one of the last ones to ever write to me. I wasn't as faithful in the writing back as I could have/should have been. I am sorry for that. But a letter from you would make my day. I have saved a lot of them. I re-read them all after you died. I occasionally pull them out and read them again. I hear your voice in them. I take comfort in them.

I think you would love to see your great grandchildren. Michael has grown into quite the young man--I would like to think that you would have continued your letter writing to him and the exchanges between you two would have been wonderful. He is imaginative and smart, I think you would have gotten a kick out of him. Willow...oh, you would have LOVED to meet her. You would have seen so much of me in her. She definitely would have gotten spoiled by you. (Oh, and then there are Lorelei and Kirsten--how you would have loved holding your twin great grandchildren!) But in each of their eyes is a spark of you and that will have to satisfy.

I miss you, but I am glad for you. Thank you for being in my life. Thank you for the memories.

Happy Birthday, Grammie.



Tati said...

What a touching post. Thank you for sharing it. I'm sure she would be so proud of the mom and wife you have become. xoxo

Miss K said...

That was a wonderful post. Sending hugs your way.....

Anonymous said...

Such a sweet post. Big hugs to you today.

Suzy, Not a Fertile Myrtle said...

So beautiful. Thinking of you and your sweet Grammie. I know she would be oh so proud of the woman and Mother that you are.

HereWeGoAJen said...

Happy birthday to your Grammie. I'll be thinking about you today.

Anonymous said...

I was thinking about mom today as well. Your comments bring a tear to my eyes because I know how much you loved her. She was the best. She was a very strong woman who had to rasie 2 boys, one 12 and the other 16 by herself after Dad died. I have thought about this in later life and I understand now how well she did that job against all odds. I love you very much.