I am a stress ball of worry...

Sometimes when things are strange, I have this feeling like I am in a dream, like its not quite real.  At that time, everything seems a bit more focused and the colors are more bright, people's faces seem like they are in a close up and I feel like I am drifting through.  

I used to feel this way when I started a new school.  Wandering the halls, trying to get to new classes, etc.  Always had a surreal feeling.  

After a while, things would become routine and the new and strange would become normal.

This happened again when the Pandemic struck.  I remember being at work when they announced that everyone was to go home because the country was in a lock down.  We all gathered in the hallway, and I got that strange dream like surreal feeling.

The next few months were like that too...and then...it became routine and normal.  Now, when I go out somewhere and I see someone wearing a mask, I don't question it.  

And that, THAT is what I fear the most about what is going on in this country.  I worry that our country is in a dream/nightmare state right now---and that things will become normalized.  That a Dictatorship will be normalized.  That Deportations of people who are doing nothing wrong, and in fact are HELPING our country be a better place...will become routine. 

Today, in Massachusetts, there was at least one ICE raid.  Freedoms are being stripped away, and my worst fear is that those who believe in this madness will believe this is a good thing--and that they will force the rest of us to have to adjust.

I cannot. I will not. I will defend those who are dear to me first, but I will also defend those who need defending the most...because this is anything but normal.

TotalCon 2025 Recap

Another year, another Total Confusion gaming convention!

This year was one of those Above Average, Wonderfully Good Years! 

Everyone had fun, even I got to play more than just one or two games, and everyone got along.  

Only MAJOR issue was that the Pool was out of commission this year--Renovations!

Minor issue the first night--we have realized that we have finally gotten to the point that both kids need separate bed areas--so a Cot was procured and the rest of the weekend went well.

We actually started the weekend off early for us--got there on Thursday evening and Chewy was playing a role playing game by 7 p.m. that night.

My highlights were playing a board game event with each kiddo (The Thing with Willow and Santa vs. The Martians with Michael), and playing a role playing game with Willow (who is hilarious when she role plays).  I even got to play a role playing game by myself one evening!  All the games were fun and creative.  

AND Michael had his birthday on that Friday--and thanks to grocery delivery, I was able to get him a surprise cake!

I didn't take as many pictures this year...happily too busy!