Waiting sucks and other musings...

I am so tired of waiting. I am not a waiting type of person. Now, I know lots of people would hate waiting...and I understand that waiting is part of it, understood it from the start. But I REALLY suck at waiting. I hated waiting for summer vacation when I was a kid, hated waiting for Santa Claus (yes, I was the one peeking in the hiding places for the presents), hated waiting 9 months for the first one, hated waiting for him to "DO" something interesting (I am NOT a "Baby" person--I like it when they stop being potato lumps and actually DO something), hated waiting for....oh, okay, I just am not a patient person, okay!?!?

Random thoughts just popping in my mind, trying to distract myself. Half the time thinking that I am pregnant (was this how I felt nine years ago? hmmm?); half the time thinking I definately am not. Then I tell myself--stupid! its too soon to tell!! That is WHY you are WAITING!!! Then, I think of a random episode of Rome or BSG, or the Saturn project that I am helping Michael on (spent $50!! at A.C. Moore for a 2nd Grade project on the planet Saturn). Yesterday we painted Saturn and some of its moons (its got about 50+!) And he did such a great job---and then my mind goes right to the fact that soon he will be old enough not to have my help at mixing the paints of his projects at all. And then I think about the fact that I so wanted a little brother or SISTER for him by now....and then we are back to thinking maybe I might be pregnant (was this how I felt nine years ago? hmmm?)....