New Year, Same Problems

Holidays are over, but seems their bright glow did not diminish the grey smudge-ness of life for very long. It's now 2006 and I am not so sure I am happy about that. While its wonderful to watch my son grow, its also a bit bittersweet, especially since our attempts at having another child have not been successful (yet). So, planning his birthday party, while fun, can also be perplexing. How did I get to this point in my life and where am I going are thoughts that sometimes creep in. I am satisfied with my life, I am grateful for what I have and who I am...just sometimes the edges seem to be coming unglued...

I have a feeling that most of my feelings are directly tied to the world and how I just can not seem to fathom the incredible ineptness of our "leadership". The elections of 2000 and 2004 just sapped all the positive energy I had for human beings...I can not understand how scandal after scandal after scandal can happen, but NOTHING is done about it. After Katrina, I really hoped somehow that SOMETHING positive would happen from that. Instead, in our "in the moment" news has gone on to other more "interesting" stories rather than how the government (local, regional and national) are going to help thousands of people to rebuild their lives. And the corruption train keeps going and no one cares. Or, more precisely, the people who care are not being heard. Its just so frustrating and depressing.