Thursday, August 23, 2007

Cautiously Optimistic...still kinda sucks

I feel lucky to get to this stage, I really do. And I know that I should not be complaining, because we have been lucky so far. BUT -- the whole waiting for the next hurdle is getting old. I wanna be able to just enjoy it, like I did the first time. But, Nooo. Now I preface everything with "It's still a little too early" and end conversations with "hopefully, if all goes right".

Last night I was in tears because I felt I jinxed it by telling (having to tell) most everyone at work (its a small company--there was no way around the second round of IVF without letting them know).

SO, I guess its still the IVF LIMBO at the moment...

I will find some things to distract me, hopefully!

4 comments:

Kim said...

I think it's perfectly understandable, how you're feeling. That doesn't make it any easier, but it seems normal. Hopefully, each milestone that passes will make it easier and easier to relax and enjoy the ride.

Abby said...

I totally understand what you are feeling. I am in a simalair place and still cannot believe that I am pregnant, but still scared that something will go wrong. Keep your chin up...

lub said...

It really sucks that having lived the life of IF, you can't enjoy a pregnancy. When I see other women who just bee-bop along knowing they are 4 or 5 weeks pregnant like they could not even imagine a tragedy- it kills me. Not that I want them to feel pain- just know what its like to be me once in a while. Best wishes!!!

topcat said...

Ohhhh, I hear you. I hope you're able to take it a bit more easier, and hopefully enjoy it. What you say is so true though!

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